I must confess, I think about the future… a lot! Ok maybe the correct word is worry about the future. I am a planner. I like to think of my myself as a realist, but too often I am a pessimist. It’s something I have struggled with my whole life. I have made many advancements in this area. I have learned a lot. Still, it always tries to creep back into my life, sometimes with a different face, but it’s always the same thing. The enemy tries to make me feel not enough. Unworthy. And in return I end up realizing that I am rejecting a gift that has already been given to me. For free too. I don’t have to pay for it. It’s already mine.
Too often I feel as though I am not doing enough. I wonder if He is proud of me. If He thinks I am doing enough? I know that spending time with Him can look different every day, and that’s okay. But I still struggle with childhood insecurities of not doing things the way “religion” often tells us we should. I am a busy mom of four kids. They are 8,6,4 and a nursing 7 month old. Every day is different. Days and nights are unpredictable. Still, I choose to serve Him with everything in me. I know He is The One true God, I believe that with all of me. Why is it that we often feel not enough? Not worthy of His love? His Word says:
Galatians 2:20, “I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”
If I have been crucified with Him and I no longer live because He lives in me, then that means He is enough. I am worthy. It’s not about me being enough anymore, His greatness is in me. Wow! Praise God! Knowing this makes me realize that when I trust my feelings, I am unknowingly rejecting Him. I reject His sacrifice, His gift, His unconditional love for me. I have to chose to listen and believe the truth, His truth!
- We are more than enough. We are loved!
- We are safe!
- And my favorite:
1 Peter 2:9 says, “But you are a chosen [woman], a royal [priest], a holy [daughter], a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.”
We have been called out of darkness [lies]. Let’s chose to live in freedom, in light, in truth!
With love, Linda